Kate Moses is the author of Cakewalk: A Memoir, and Wintering, a fictional account of Sylvia Plath’s last years, for which Moses received the Janet Heidinger Kafka Prize and a Prix des lec­trices de Elle. Along with Camille Peri, she coedited two anthologies of essays on motherhood: Because I Said So: 33 Mothers Write about Children, Sex, Men, Aging, Faith, Race & Themselves and Mothers Who Think: Tales of Real-Life Parenthood. Moses lives in San Francisco with her husband and their two children.

Photograph by Ramona Pedersen.

Chocolate Cake for Diane

An Essay

by Kate Moses

I asked her what she wanted most. I didn’t need to explain. The time for explanations and contingencies had passed. I sat as close to her as I could, careful not to put pressure on the tubes taped down at her wrist, bruised and thin as a bird’s, or to knock the elevated table holding a paper cup of chipped ice: the only thing left that she could ingest, even that not always successfully. December would arrive that week, and Diane had not eaten since early October. After nearly four years of hard fighting, her cancer had finally won. Diane’s husband, Carl, had told me on the phone the night before that it was a matter of weeks. Even so, consummate hostess that she’d always been, when I walked into her hospital room that morning Diane offered me a cup of chipped ice of my own.

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